P1416:6, 128:7.1
As this year began, Jesus of Nazareth became strongly conscious that he possessed
a wide range of potential power. But he was likewise fully persuaded that
this power was not to be employed by his personality as the Son of Man, at
least not until his hour should come.
P1417:1, 128:7.2
At this time he thought much but said little about the relation of himself
to his Father in heaven. And the conclusion of all this thinking was expressed
once in his prayer on the hilltop, when he said: "Regardless of who I am and
what power I may or may not wield, I always have been, and always will be,
subject to the will of my Paradise Father." And yet, as this man walked about
Nazareth to and from his work, it was literally true -- as concerned a vast
universe -- that "in him were hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge."
P1417:2, 128:7.3
All this year the family affairs ran smoothly except for Jude. For years James
had trouble with his youngest brother, who was not inclined to settle down
to work nor was he to be depended upon for his share of the home expenses.
While he would live at home, he was not conscientious about earning his share
of the family upkeep.
P1417:3, 128:7.4
Jesus was a man of peace, and ever and anon was he embarrassed by Jude's belligerent
exploits and numerous patriotic outbursts. James and Joseph were in favor
of casting him out, but Jesus would not consent. When their patience would
be severely tried, Jesus would only counsel: "Be patient. Be wise in your
counsel and eloquent in your lives, that your young brother may first know
the better way and then be constrained to follow you in it." The wise and
loving counsel of Jesus prevented a break in the family; they remained together.
But Jude never was brought to his sober senses until after his marriage.
P1417:4, 128:7.5
Mary seldom spoke of Jesus' future mission. Whenever this subject was referred
to, Jesus only replied, "My hour has not yet come." Jesus had about completed
the difficult task of weaning his family from dependence on the immediate
presence of his personality. He was rapidly preparing for the day when he
could consistently leave this Nazareth home to begin the more active prelude
to his real ministry for men.
P1417:5, 128:7.6
Never lose sight of the fact that the prime mission of Jesus in his seventh
bestowal was the acquirement of creature experience, the achievement of the
sovereignty of Nebadon. And in the gathering of this very experience he made
the supreme revelation of the Paradise Father to Urantia and to his entire
local universe. Incidental to these purposes he also undertook to untangle
the complicated affairs of this planet as they were related to the Lucifer
rebellion.
P1417:6, 128:7.7
This year Jesus enjoyed more than usual leisure, and he devoted much time
to training James in the management of the repair shop and Joseph in the direction
of home affairs. Mary sensed that he was making ready to leave them. Leave
them to go where? To do what? She had about given up the thought that Jesus
was the Messiah. She could not understand him; she simply could not fathom
her first-born son.
P1417:7, 128:7.8
Jesus spent a great deal of time this year with the individual members of
his family. He would take them for long and frequent strolls up the hill and
through the countryside. Before harvest he took Jude to the farmer uncle south
of Nazareth, but Jude did not remain long after the harvest. He ran away,
and Simon later found him with the fishermen at the lake. When Simon brought
him back home, Jesus talked things over with the runaway lad and, since he
wanted to be a fisherman, went over to Magdala with him and put him in the
care of a relative, a fisherman; and Jude worked fairly well and regularly
from that time on until his marriage, and he continued as a fisherman after
his marriage.
P1418:1, 128:7.9
At last the day had come when all Jesus' brothers had chosen, and were established
in, their lifework. The stage was being set for Jesus' departure from home.
P1418:2, 128:7.10
In November a double wedding occurred. James and Esta, and Miriam and Jacob
were married. It was truly a joyous occasion. Even Mary was once more happy
except every now and then when she realized that Jesus was preparing to go
away. She suffered under the burden of a great uncertainty: If Jesus would
only sit down and talk it all over freely with her as he had done when he
was a boy, but he was consistently uncommunicative; he was profoundly silent
about the future.
P1418:3, 128:7.11
James and his bride, Esta, moved into a neat little home on the west side
of town, the gift of her father. While James continued his support of his
mother's home, his quota was cut in half because of his marriage, and Joseph
was formally installed by Jesus as head of the family. Jude was now very faithfully
sending his share of funds home each month. The weddings of James and Miriam
had a very beneficial influence on Jude, and when he left for the fishing
grounds, the day after the double wedding, he assured Joseph that he could
depend on him "to do my full duty, and more if it is needed." And he kept
his promise.
P1418:4, 128:7.12
Miriam lived next door to Mary in the home of Jacob, Jacob the elder having
been laid to rest with his fathers. Martha took Miriam's place in the home,
and the new organization was working smoothly before the year ended.
P1418:5, 128:7.13
The day after this double wedding Jesus held an important conference with
James. He told James, confidentially, that he was preparing to leave home.
He presented full title to the repair shop to James, formally and solemnly
abdicated as head of Joseph's house, and most touchingly established his brother
James as "head and protector of my father's house." He drew up, and they both
signed, a secret compact in which it was stipulated that, in return for the
gift of the repair shop, James would henceforth assume full financial responsibility
for the family, thus releasing Jesus from all further obligations in these
matters. After the contract was signed, after the budget was so arranged that
the actual expenses of the family would be met without any contribution from
Jesus, Jesus said to James: "But, my son, I will continue to send you something
each month until my hour shall have come, but what I send shall be used by
you as the occasion demands. Apply my funds to the family necessities or pleasures
as you see fit. Use them in case of sickness or apply them to meet the unexpected
emergencies which may befall any individual member of the family."
P1418:6, 128:7.14
And thus did Jesus make ready to enter upon the second and
home-detached phase
of his adult life before the public entrance upon his Father's business.